"I am so tired of asking questions, doing the right things by her and just getting reminded that it's not enough!! This mare has been in heat like clock work for the last 2 months... that is NOT normal by any stretch of the term. Just frustrating."
I received the text as I was walking out of my doc appointment, late. I needed to drive home and change still to go to my other job. A day in my life, I suppose. So, I shot back a sentence, guiding her to another place on the mare. We've been talking a lot lately, always there with a fresh set of eyes and a kick in the ass to keep going when this gets tough. Equine entrepreneurship 101. We also are "competing" therapists local enough to be territorial. Beautifully, we aren't.
The next message I got was her citing the Merck Vet Manual about heat in mares. Ahhhhhhh... I then saw what a problem was/is.
I'm terribly blunt, and remember, I was on a mission. "I'd get out of your books and go FEEL her. Throw away the research hat and feel her." She reacted to that text with love. "You sound just like me... lol I have to tell that to others too, and yet, here I am! Thank you!"
The truth is, I, too, have to be told it. I think about things in such complex ways and love rabbit holes WAY more than I should. My thinking face also closely resembles a scowl which only adds to my persona, I guess.
I responded saying "I have to be told it, too. *Insert more guidance*. Nothing is normal when nature is trying to figure itself out. Trust your hands, trust your work and trust nature will take care of the rest."
It aligns with a quote by AT Still. "Find it, fix it, and let it alone.”
I had a conversation earlier on today about the same thing for myself. I forwarded one of my talented mentors a video. Just under a week ago we had spoke about a mare I saw locally. I saw her two weeks ago today. This mare was and is "above my paygrade" and that's NOT me selling myself short. I'm always optimistic of what the body can do, but never overstating my skills. I do feel as though I am this mares best shot locally, unless I can connect with one of my colleagues to come visit us. That's a big shoe to fill.
I got a video of the mare wandering through pasture on both hind legs yesterday, a day short of 2 weeks post session with me.
Finally! It was an ugly beginning and an ugly couple of weeks.
I forwarded the video to my mentor, because I'm a rabbit-hole-aficionado. Two weeks to re-establish is NOT normal. Damn, am I so grateful for those in my network always there for me. She politely reminded me I do not know better than nature and to knock it off with being such a "doer".
Lesson learned - for the day.
...and a reminder to "doubt the doubt". Sometimes it's a "dig on" sorta day, sometimes it's a "doubt the doubt" kinda day and sometimes it's both. Best advice I've been given yet, and somehow it applies to more than just bodywork.
Hi - I'm Lindsay. This is my outlet for sharing my thoughts, rambling and journey I've been on as an equine therapist, entrepreneur and horsewoman. I live in the ruggedly wild Wyoming and have a love for hounds, curly horses, margaritas and anatomy. Thanks for stopping by!